07 It Had to Be You Read online

  “Hey. Hey, slow down, I was just—”

  “I know.” She shook her head. “I just thought that given how this place was left to you by your father, it’d mean something to you.”

  “We’ve been over that,” he said tightly.

  “Right. You didn’t like Richard. You don’t care about this place.”

  “I care about how much it’s worth. Which is nothing if we don’t have guests in here. I care about keeping all of your jobs available to you, even after I’m no longer here. I care about a hell of a lot, Callie, so don’t tell me what I feel.”

  “Fine.” Angry, frustrated, hurt—and not really understanding why—she moved down the stairs. She was so full of conflicting emotions it took her a moment to realize the decibel level of barking.

  She followed the barking around the back of the house to the basement entrance. It wasn’t Shep barking, though he stood there.

  Or sat anyway, because Shep was twelve and he never stood when he could sit, and never sat when he could lie down. Tongue hanging out, he happily panted at the mud-colored brown dog next to him, which Callie had never seen before.

  She was a good-sized dog, too, despite being so malnourished. Still, it wasn’t her size that stopped Callie from going into the basement, but the bared teeth and menacing growl she let out between ear-splitting barks, now aimed right at Callie herself.

  5

  Jake stood on the porch for a long moment after Callie walked away from him, staring blindly out into the yard. He heard a dog going crazy but it didn’t penetrate his other more pressing thought—that Callie wanted this place to mean something to him, wanted him to understand how much it meant to her, to all of them working here.

  “But how can I?” he said to the morning air, to his father’s ghost, to no one. Maybe if Richard hadn’t been so ornery and stubborn, maybe if he’d been willing to meet Jake halfway, maybe, maybe, maybe.

  It was far too late for maybes with the man dead and buried.

  But why had Richard left him this godforsaken ranch in the first place? It was nothing more than a money pit for him. Maybe it’d been a cruel reminder that Jake had never been the son he wanted. Maybe it’d been a joke. Or, maybe it’d simply been a way to reach the son he’d never tried all that hard to reach in life. And how pathetic was it that Jake wished for the latter.

  He didn’t belong here in the land of Oz, where these people all had each other and looked at him like he was an alien. That had been made painfully clear to him when he’d questioned everyone about Sierra. They’d all stuck together with genuine care and affection, Eddie covering for his brother’s hangover, Stone covering for Tucker’s temper, and Tucker covering for Eddie being alone in the barn.

  And each of them had vouched for Amy as well, a young woman they knew even less than they did Jake. He didn’t have to wonder if any of them would have done the same for him. They wouldn’t have.

  And damn if he didn’t feel lonely as hell.

  He also felt stupid for letting it all get to him. He should have left this morning. He still could, and he pulled out his cell phone to call Joe to tell him he was coming back as soon as he could get on a plane.

  But Joe had left him two text messages: “Playgirl called again, offered a firefighter calendar. Mr. July…can I have your autograph?”

  And then the second: “Just heard from the chief…brace yourself for a nasty lawsuit.”

  He also had a message from his attorney. Just an ominous: Call me today.

  Rubbing his aching shoulder, Jake sighed. He would have to get up-to-date on the proceedings, and also pay for the nuisance. With what, he had no idea.

  In any case, going home didn’t seem like a viable option, not yet.

  The wild barking finally penetrated his thoughts, and shrugging off his own problems, he followed the noise around the back of the house. Callie stood in front of the basement entrance, facing off with a mangy old mutt who looked as if she hadn’t eaten in a week.

  “Hey, there,” she murmured to the dog, reaching out her hand.

  Teeth bared, the mutt growled, and Callie hastily pulled back.

  Jake moved in and put himself in front of her. “You want to lose a few fingers to go with those bumps and bruises? Back up.”

  “You never give up with the hero thing, do you?”

  He could have argued that point. He sure as hell didn’t feel like a hero out here in the middle of nowhere, being needed by exactly no one. “Just move.” Hunkering down to the dog’s eye level, he smiled. “Whatcha doing, pretty lady?”

  Callie let out a rough laugh. “That voice might work on the females of my race, but a dog isn’t going to”—she broke off with a frown when the dog relaxed her stance enough to sit—“fall for it.”

  “So whatcha doing all the way out here in the middle of nowhere? You lost? Poor thing, you look hungry.” He held up his hand for her to sniff.

  “What do you think she’s all up in arms about?” Callie tried to step beyond the dog to see past the open basement door, but the dog growled again.

  Jake put his left hand out in front of Callie to hold her back from getting bitten, and ignored her irritated huff of breath. “You sure look like you’ve had a rough time of it.” At the sound of his voice, the dog stopped growling again. “Maybe if we fed you, you’d be happier. What do you think?”

  The dog let out a long whine.

  The sound was oddly heartbreaking. Jake tried to decide what could be disturbing her, but couldn’t see into the dark basement. “So what are you guarding?”

  “We don’t use that space for much,” Callie said. “She could have cornered anything in there.”

  Jake continued to hold out his hand to the dog, and took it as a good sign when she didn’t resume her growling. He let her sniff him again, then stroked her down her thin, scruffy back.

  Her tail let out one weak wag. Permission granted, Jake moved around her and to the door, but when Callie tried to follow him, the dog once again bared her teeth.

  “Wait here,” Jake said.

  “But—”

  Ignoring her, he pulled the door the rest of the way open, and poked his head inside. There was a landing there, and then a set of stairs that went down about five feet, then turned ninety degrees and went down another five feet. It wasn’t the stairs that drew his attention, but the second landing.

  In the far dusty corner he found what the poor dog was trying so desperately to protect, and even as he looked, she pressed her cold nose under his arm to see as well, making him see double when she jarred his shoulder.

  “Jake?”

  Hearing Callie’s voice behind them, the dog growled low in her throat.

  “Hang on,” he called back. “She’s got—”

  “Puppies,” Callie guessed, sounding resigned.

  As his eyes adjusted to the dark and he started counting the softly mewling puppies, the momma again nudged his arm with her wet nose, sending shots of fire down his bicep all the way to his fingers. “Yeah, I see your babies.” With his left hand, he patted her as they looked them over. “Five?”

  The dog walked down the steps to the landing and whined softly, plaintively. Jake moved in, then peered down the crack between the landing and the wall. He heard the rustling in the dark. Reaching down there was a whole new kind of pain, and he gritted his teeth as he paused to take a deep breath. “One’s slipped down between the landing and the wall. I’ll get it.” It cost him. By the time he set the puppy in the midst of its siblings and next to the mother who finally allowed herself to relax now that her last baby was back, Jake was a sweaty, shaky mess. His shoulder was leaping with each heartbeat, pulsing with pain, and he felt light-headed. The weakness was humiliating.

  “Jake?”

  “I think you can come in now. She’s calmer.” He stayed where he was, on his knees in front of the dog and her puppies, waiting for his world to stop spinning.

  Callie had run somewhere for a flashlight. When she scooted in behi
nd him, with Shep pushing in as well, she also dropped to her knees to take a look. “Oh, Shep.” She sighed and put an arm around him. “They’re adorable though, aren’t they?”

  Jake would have laughed if he could. Adorable isn’t what he’d call the mangy-looking things, but then any amusement backed up in his throat because Callie, so close he could feel her soft breath on his ear, put her hand on his shoulder. “You’re shaking.” Her fingers lightly danced over the incision beneath his shirt, much like the motion he’d dreamed her doing, only this wasn’t a dream. “Torn rotator cuff?”

  “Among other things.”

  “Such as?”

  He wanted to be big and strong. He wanted to not feel any weaknesses, but a man could only be so tough with a woman looking at him like she was. “Actually, it was a complete shoulder reconstruction.”

  “Oh, Jake.”

  Her expression made him want to touch her, cup her face, stroke his fingers over her jaw and sink into her hair. A shock, because it wasn’t just the usual surge of lust. Here was an opportunity he hadn’t even known he wanted—to talk to her, to have her know him, to convince her he wasn’t a jerk, because suddenly it mattered what she thought of him. Suddenly he wanted her to be as warm and sweet to him as she was to everyone else.

  Too bad he couldn’t move without whimpering.

  “Probably climbing around after dogs and puppies is a bad idea,” she said, her hand still on him.

  “Probably, but you shouldn’t be doing this, either.”

  “I’m fine.”

  “Headache?”

  “Only a little.” She glanced at the puppies now being fed by their mother, who still watched her and Jake carefully. “Looks like we got ourselves a new dog.”

  So accepting. So willing to gather whoever and whatever to the Blue Flame.

  Had his father been like that? It surprised him to feel sad that he didn’t know. “And six puppies.”

  She sighed. “And six puppies. You were good with her; she didn’t want anything to do with me.”

  “Animals like me.”

  “Women do, too.”

  He slanted her a glance. “Most, but not all, I’m learning.”

  She mused over that for a long moment. Dropped her hand from him. “Sometimes I don’t know what to say to you.”

  “Then don’t say anything.” With a great effort, he leaned in so their mouths were a mere fraction of an inch apart. He put his left hand to the curve of her jaw. “Let’s try this instead.” And even knowing he was crazy for wanting this, he put his mouth on hers.

  Her hand slid up between them, until her palm settled against his chest. To push him away? Pull him closer? She did neither but let her lips cling to his for a long moment before pulling back.

  “What was that?” she whispered.

  “Just one little kiss.” He tunneled his fingers up into the wild silk of her hair, glad it was loose, and leaned in again, needing one more taste.

  She held him back. “You said one kiss.”

  Right, but he’d also said little. It’d been neither. He wanted more but he couldn’t move his other arm worth a damn. With his good hand, he slid his fingers down the length of her hair to the small of her back, nudging her forward into his body.

  Her hand fisted in his shirt, gripping him tight, getting a few chest hairs in the mix. He didn’t care if she pulled them all out one by one as long as she stayed with her body up against his for another moment.

  “Jake…” She rocked against him, just a tiny little movement of her hips, which was all the encouragement he needed to lower his head and kiss her again.

  She moaned softly, then hooked an arm around his neck, and just like that, it was that long ago night all over again; so hot, so sweet and wet, sending an unquenchable hunger skittering down his spine to pool in his groin. He forgot the puppies, his shoulder, his father, everything but the taste and feel of the surprisingly sensual woman in his arms. Her breasts pressed into his chest, and he cupped the sweet curve of her ass in his hand. A sense of déjà vu filled him at that. They’d done this before, and as it had then, the pleasure of her blew him away. Like then, he wanted a hell of a lot more than a kiss, a hell of a lot more than he could get from her while kneeling on the dirty ground surrounded by puppies and dust.

  And still she didn’t pull away. Neither did he. Needing more, his hand slid beneath the hem of her shirt, seeking warm, sleek, soft skin. She was slim but not fragile, never fragile. He’d seen her toss a heavy saddle, lift a pig, and face down a panicky horse. He knew exactly how strong she was. And he knew something else. He wanted her, so damn much.

  It made no sense. Nothing about this made sense. He didn’t have a place in his heart for the Blue Flame or the woman who ran it, and yet the longer he kissed her, the more he wanted. He kissed her long and deep. He kissed her until he was dizzy with it, until she was making little sounds in the back of her throat that told him she was as far gone as he was. He was fantasizing about how much further he could take them both when she pulled back. Not out of his arms, just away enough that their lips disconnected with a sucking sound that didn’t help any. God, her mouth.

  Her eyes fluttered open. “Was that just a kiss, too?”

  It took him a long moment to get his brain in gear. Slowly he pulled his hand back, lingering for a few seconds to stroke her warm skin one more time.

  “I need to get to the barn.” She rose to her feet. Wobbled. She put a hand to her head as if that would help her think. “Tucker’ll be waiting. I’ll figure out what to do with these puppies later.”

  “Callie.” He rose, too, and felt just as wobbly. When she would have moved away, he put a hand on her wrist. “You’re not going to be able to blame that on the whiskey.”

  Her lips were still wet, and he thought of a thousand things he’d like her to do with those wet lips.

  “I never blamed it on the whiskey,” she said.

  “What did you blame it on?”

  “Having a misguided sense of what’s right for me.”

  “So you’re not denying there’s something almost chemically addictive between us.”

  “Like I said, I have a misguided sense of what’s right for me.” She stepped away, subject apparently closed. “Tucker might enjoy your company today.”

  “So apparently we’re done talking about us.”

  “Yes.”

  He actually managed to laugh. Now he remembered why he didn’t want a woman in his life. They were unreliable, unpredictable, and insane. He should thank her for reminding him. “How do you figure Tucker might enjoy my company?”

  “I know he puts up a tough front, but I think it’s been hard for him having no family.”

  “He doesn’t consider me his family anymore.”

  “Why not?”

  From the day Jake and his mother had parted ways, Tucker had stopped loving Jake. It hadn’t helped that his mother had done her best to keep them separated, and with her traveling, she’d succeeded. A habit that had stuck, even when Tucker had gotten older.

  Until he’d been in trouble with the law and had needed Jake. “You’d have to ask him.”

  “But you consider him your family, right?”

  “I got him this job, didn’t I?”

  She let out a sound of annoyance, and he frowned. “What does that mean?”

  “It means you’re as stubborn as he is.”

  His mind was still addled by the blood loss to his groin. “Look, I’m glad he took this job. I’m glad he’s helpful to you, and having a good time while he’s at it. It’s kept him off the streets and out of more trouble. I don’t know what else I can do. That’s not stubbornness, that’s just the way it is.”

  “You could take more interest.”

  “I’m here, aren’t I?”

  “To sell.”

  The indignation left him. “I know you guys consider this place home. I’m not going to let anyone get kicked out in the street. I told you, if I sell, I’ll make sure the
y’ll keep you both on, and I meant it.”

  “If you sell? Or when?”

  There’d better be a when. “I’ve called a few Realtors to come out this week. After we paint.”

  “We?”

  “We. You’ve seen the books. You know I can’t afford to get a painter out here.”

  That was definitely disappointment on her face now, but he only got a quick glimpse before she started walking toward the barn.

  Well, what the hell else could he say? He was good for his word. He’d do his damnedest to make sure her life didn’t change, or his brother’s. With one last look at the puppies, he headed back toward the house. His shoulder throbbed, his head was beginning to match. He decided to spend the day doing what he’d gotten good at since he’d fallen through a burning roof and had broken his fall with his shoulder—nothing.

  Callie would have dwelled on that kiss—kisses—all day if she could have, but she had plenty of things to do to keep her distracted. Feed her new dog for one. The poor thing inhaled her food as if she hadn’t eaten in days.

  The serum for the inoculations was indeed missing, a problem made all the more strange because of what had happened to Sierra. Odder still, it didn’t appear as if anyone had broken in, and nothing else was missing, even though the tack room hadn’t been locked and was filled with expensive gear.

  Callie would swear she was losing her mind except she’d seen the shipment of serum arrive herself. They searched everywhere: the barn, their storage shed, even around the yard. She had no choice but to accept the fact it was gone.

  Before their guests arrived, the sheriff came out and took a report. And through it all, Callie was aware of a humming in her blood that she knew she had Jake to thank for. She’d let him put his hands on her, and at odd moments throughout the day, her face and body went hot at just the thought.

  Idiot. When would she remember that he turned her into a blathering, drooling idiot? The next time he had her naked? And would that be before or after he sold the Blue Flame? A hundred times today she’d nearly told him she wanted to buy the ranch and a hundred times she’d held back. The guy had to sell, sooner than later, so what could telling him possibly get her besides pity? Nothing.